another updates from me....

last tuesday as i ask dem to come over to gk for drinks....and yea dey did come that day...which it's include Bee ,Yik,Yen,Ang,Ben,Mun and me!! hahax
our so called "reunion" but too bad jean wasnt there with us lor....den first we planned to go for dinner but when all reached and dey said they ald full except ang...so went to malay stall for dinner...den change to Little Tree....as we planned to drink beer that nite and so we ordered one bucket of carlsberg.....wahaha.....keep chatting til ben n mun reach....and when dey reached Mun ordered another bucket of carlsberg....waahaaha...finally im drunk alittle....but all of dem stil concious swt!! and duno who suggested to go for Sing K...millions of NO i said..but no one listened to me...dey insisted wanna sing wuwuw and claim that im so heng....waahah and so finally dey drag me to their cars...and zoo000mm and we reached times square....den sing n sing n sing......as if i being kidnapped lidat lor...funny dou hell waahaha til i reali headache and i cant stand it anymore and i juz lay on the sofa....since we got a big room o eventhough we are jz 7ppls....but there is many 1st thing happened during that nite lor

• Ben FINALLY open his "gold mouth" and sing....usually ask him go sing k he'll juz sleep there or sing inside his heart hahahax and he sing til so high lor......keep jumping here and there and acted like an "orang utan" wahaha *i guess he wouldnt read my blog huh*
• i reached home ard 5sth this is de first time i back to GK in the morning but everyone slept but my body juz so stink thinking where i should sleep...wanted to sleep in the living room but no bed for me...plus my headache so decided to jump back to my room and sleep
• and i think this is the first time i sing k wit YIk if i m not mistaken....currently having short term memory lost waahaha....
• this is my very first time sing k at midnite leh ard 1am only we reached there and sing til 4am haha....
  

it's been so long since our last K session and so many ppls also...except jean phew....hahahx....but im sure there alwiz next time.......

im sorry lor that let u guys de purse bleed..and i know everyone know sth and i know u guys dun dare to ask me wat happened....and Thanks for the advices......but i still need time lea.....great to have u guys with me......and reli thanks for supporting me when i m reli down....and time is de healer of everything i guess...and no worries i will back to who i used to be....
but please dun ask me anything face to face a u know me well right? wahahaha....sumthing that ben said reli make me wanna LOL.....waahaha bt dun1 tell here lar...funny dou hell.....


every of my fren played an imp role de leh

• Mun-keep ask me to drink wit her.drink a drink a drink a!! sadness will fade away by keep drinking!!!
  
• Bee-another funny gal...keep shoot shoot shoot how guys act a...how bad is guys was.....haha.....bt also ok de sumtimes i do agree with her...waahahah
• Yik-a mature guys i guessed!! hehe telling me what i should do...the one who got alot philosophy of life wahaha.....bt he juz went back to AUs today...wish u yat lou sun fong ya!!
  
• Yen-silently she did sth bt she juz wont tell what she did and of course that is for a good purpose lor....she alwiz get her ears ready to listen for my grudge hahah
  
• Ang-waahaha...sensitive gal...whenever whoever said sth wrong and she'll indirectly give hint to that fella as a signal of stop....and she will simply create a new topic....waahaha..thanks o!
  
• Ben-as i mentioned jz nw..he's so funny...juz i duno how to tell it here....waahaha
• Ade-keep asking me to stay strong even she duno what happening wahaha bt she's a tough gal
• Joe Yee-claimed that she is a pro-counselor wahahaha and wanted to consult me....but dun worry gals im okay!! hahahax.....
  

bt the funny things is none of dem know what actually happening...perhaps they ald can sense wat happening ba....waahahaha.....i tot i m good at acting??waahahaha...bleuuk

UPDAteS!!

today me and aderine went to pavillion again....but today is juz me and her...funny....usualy we go in a gang but today onli both of us....but okay since she got aim on what to buy there dy...we took bus to there.....waited awhile for the bus..finally one bus come...so we go in...the bus driver was so sucks..keep emergency break make everyone like "pu ta ong" and sumtimes i reli gonna pk dy ish....finally reach sg wang....reli feel like vomit dy....phew...how nice if i manage to vomit on the driver....bad driving skill ish.....


acc ade walk here n there....finally i saw my red colour purse from SEED..wondering how much it's cost.....waahaha den ade ask the sales assistant for the price....wee RM 119.......weeeee
heartbroken dy.....so exp leh...tot of buying it IF that onli cost me ard 50 to 60bucks....too far frm my budget range....sad :(.....and my red colour bag that even worse i guess...haiz suan le ba...


my life now is pretty normal....but sumthing happened recently...but thanks for not asking me what actually happening...i really appreciate it alot....thankz for supporting me in a indirect way hahaax....but i still ned time to cope wit watever happening now....waahaha....


LaLaLa---bleuuk......for now i reli need MONEY!!! so I really need to save....reduce on my expenses lor...i wanna go shopping...today when out wit ade...see her like swipe her card til so song..Grab N go den Swipe N Sign.....waahaha simple process but it give u GREAT SATISFACTION......so conclusion I NEED CASH!!! wahaah...

there alot of thing happened recently.....im kinda regret of taking advance dip and it reli cost me alot of thing...that inccured so many opportunity cost for this decision.....

i reli put alot of faith within us...and suddenly the faith juz disappear....and what's next?
i m hoping in zillion times that my instinct is wrong...convince myself tis wouldnt happen.....and it wont happen because i dont wan it to happen....because i really love him alot....he occupied my heart as whole.....but the more tight i hold the more suffer he is......i dont hope to see him suffer and feeling so pressure over it....but he react in different ways.....


i do viewed back the picture we took last time....and de feeling totally different compared to now.....i used to believe that he is the right one....and he would be de last one for me entire life....but why??why tis happened??why god jus spinning me ard? and this reli caused huge impact on me...because he is really important to me........he is confused and moody...but i knew that he got the answer deep down in his heart...bt he juz afraid to tell or act on it because he scare he will regret......im stil putting hope that miracle will happen and i can hold him back to me.........but i know miracle will rarely happened because it all depends on FEELINGS..........
my life now is juz so plain....as plain as white paper....without direction,without aims,.......i m jus so lost...................


frens:i know by this u manage to guess what actually happening....bt plz dun ask me face to face....because it's really hard for me to tell u guys....but dun worry all i need is time and who know miracle reli happen on me....hahax....


oh yea today i went to pavillion again wit ang and yen!! i saw a purse frm Seed dam nice...i ald tackle it few days ago...bt thinking wanna buy cuz it's reli nice!!! den stupid ang sudd point at the red colour bag....that even nicer than the purse!! it would be wonderful if i can be the owner of the red colour purse and the handbags as well!!!! dreaming!! but it's reli nice...........and one shirt frm Forever 21 dam nice!!!! but budget!!! kenot spend all my money!! wuwuw....that's all for now....

whatever....

many things happened recently and all of it come to me so sudden....and look back and i realize that i really depend on him so much....and this becoming myself a weak one......and now he cant breath anymore....im sorry because i dont know that i behaving in this way....i thought im good to be with and wit me can u hardly feel the pressure,indeed im da one who keep giving u pressure...im so sorry.....and i know for now i must stand on my own feet and handle watever come to my face without any1 help...FRENS,i know u guys are wondering what happening,but im juz so sorry that i wouldnt tell isnt that i dont believe u guys, is juz i wan to try to handle it by my own.....im trying to be tough but stil i need time for it....and that why u guys seeing me cry SUMTIMES hahax....but dun ever ask me wat happening and why i cry...that really make me feel worse off......please do not tell everyone that i m sad if u do so that make me even more sad.....i m trying to be confidence and trying to find back the old me...but everything needs time....So give me more time and i promise i would be the better one.......




p/s: im so sorry to Bee,Yik,Yen,Matt, And Joe for ffk u guys for the PD trip....juz many thing come to me and i cant breath anymore!! yet no budget for me to go...i m really sorry....but i promise b4 YIk go back i muz eat one meal with him k?SORRY!!